I know I talked about some struggles I was facing in a post back in October after our first try at in vetro fertilization (IVF) failed, but I haven’t said much since. We recently went through our second round of IVF and received the negative results right before the holidays. Needless to say it has been emotionally trying and I have found myself in the same boat, having a hard time getting started again. Today things turned around.
When I got ready for work this morning I dressed in something that would allow me to work out. I do this all the time but I always seem to find an excuse that keeps me from starting up again and exercising. Today I was at my desk hypnotized by all of the emails and tasks that I had coming my way when a glance at the clock snapped me out of it. It was 2:25 p.m. That meant that the circuit class was starting in five minutes! I thought of a phone call that I needed to return and a video that I should edit… I was making excuses. Something I’ve heard our trainers say came to mind, “don’t think, just do” so I grabbed my water bottle and ran to class.
During one particularly difficult sprint I yelled over to Joy, “this is not bringing me joy, Joy!” Her response was so simple but changed my entire day. She yelled back, “Oh yes it is!”
I haven’t been able to stop thinking about that. Sure it was hard in the moment, but Joy was right. Doing something that is hard to do, that proves that I am better than I thought, and that I chose to do when I was tempted to do otherwise DOES bring me joy! I am happier with myself and and an all around happier person when I exercise!
After class Joy and I hugged and rejoiced in our accomplishments. I can honestly say that my day is so much better because I exercised. I would even say that it brought me Joy!